follow your passion and stay true to yourself. never follow someone else's path. you are amazing just the way you are:)

06 January 2013


this picture is taken by me.

Eiffel Tower, Paris.

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20 December 2012


sendiri, sendiri ku diam, diam dan merenung, merenungkan jalan yang kan membawaku pergi. pergi tuk menjauh, menjauh darimu. darimu yang mulai berhenti, berhenti mencoba, mencoba bertahan, bertahan untuk terus bersamaku.

ku berlari, kau terdiam, ku menangis, kau tersenyum. ku berduka, kau bahagia. ku pergi, kau kembali. ku mencoba meraih mimpi, kau coba tuk hentikan mimpi
memang kita takkan menyatu.

bayangkan bayangkan ku hilang, hilang tak kembali. kembali untuk mempertanyakan lagi cinta, cintamu yang mungkin, mungkin tak berarti, berarti untukku rindukan. ku berlari, kau terdiam, ku menangis, kau tersenyum. ku berduka, kau bahagia, ku pergi, kau kembali. ku mencoba meraih mimpi, kau coba tuk hentikan mimpi. memang kita takkan menyatu.

kini harusnya kita coba saling melupakan, lupakan kita pernah bersama. ku berlari, kau terdiam, ku menangis, kau tersenyum. ku berduka, kau bahagia, ku pergi, kau kembali. ku mencoba meraih mimpi, kau coba tuk hentikan mimpi.

memang kita takkan menyatu.
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16 November 2012

People tell me you hate me 
That you want me out of your life 
Well they can go on tell me all they want 
I know you wouldn’t backstab me like a knife 

People tell me that you think I’m annoying 
That you want me out of your sight 
Well they can go on and keep talking 
Our friendship is like the beautiful sunlight 

People tell me you just use me
That you don’t care about what I think
They can keep telling me that
I know that our friendship will never sink

People keep telling me
People keep lying
And they can keep gossiping
I know our close friendship won’t be dying.

iloveyou, bestie:)
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18 September 2012

the year of Ayin Gimel

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15 August 2012

dear Boy that i almost had a chance with (you know who you are) :')

this is my first letter to you, hoping that you'll read, and i just have to say, i keep crawling back to you. you still run around my mind, i just hope you’re not getting tired (or annoyed). i still have dreams of you every now and then. it annoys me honestly because it’s so gosh darn good that i don’t wanna wake up and when i do, reality sucks.

i still have this hope that i will have this chance with you, but lets face it, i won’t. what are the chances of us meeting? or even just talking again?

i’m really bummed and i hate to say it but i freaking miss you.


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heart on fire.

this song is specially dedicated to the person i adore, you know you who are, dear :')
i love you so much that it hurts.
i miss you.

I'm falling in, I'm falling down
I wanna begin but I don't know how
To let you know, how i'm feeling
I'm high on hope, I'm reeling

And I won't let you go, now you know
I've been crazy for you all this time
Kept it close, always hoping
With a heart on fire
A heart on fire
With a heart on fire
A heart on fire

Hand in hand, sparkling eyes
The days are bright and so are the nights
Cause when i'm with you, I'm grinning
Once I was through, but now i'm winning

No I won't let you go, now you know
I've been crazy for you all this time
I've kept it close, always hoping
With a heart on fire
A heart on fire
With a heart on fire
A heart on fire

Let me walk through life with you
Everybody dreams of having what we do
Like we're rolling thunder, you pull me out from under

No I won't let you go, now you know
I've been crazy for you all this time
I've kept it close, always hoping
With a heart on fire
A heart on fire
With a heart on fire
A heart on fire

A heart on fire
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11 August 2012

farewell, Rockefeller!

2010 - 2012 :")

good luck both of you in US. will be missing you guys for sure! :')
take care and till we meet again, twins! ;')

the future racer! ;)
my best buddy!
my two bestie who has always be there for me throughout the years.
will be missing both you a lot! :")
take care, my crime buddy!
the future business woman! ;)
will be missing you like crazy, girl!
you've always be there for me when i'm in need to listen to all of my problems!
thank you!
good luck on your studies! till we meet again in the future!
11 years of friendship with this girl and still going strong :')
she has always be there for me throughout the years.
will be missing her so much.
take care and stay strong!
till we meet again, darling ;)

saying goodbye
was the hardest thing to do
i never thought i would
especially not to you, Rockefeller.

you always listened
and knew what to say
knew when to give a hug
when i was having a bad day.

no one will ever take your place
i can always promise you this
it’s hard to find someone like you
so know you’ll always be missed.

thousand miles away but we'll never be apart.
thank you for a wonderful 2 years together, Rockefeller.
you guys have been the best.
good luck on your future studies!
till we meet again in the future.
*hugs and kisses*

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09 August 2012

i want you to know that i love you. i never stopped, not for one gasping second. i refuse to find others when i have the one i want. i never doubted us, but you did. i never stopped thinking about you, even though you stopped thinking about me. i never wanted to let go, but you did. i undoubtedly, irresistibly, overwhelmingly, intensely missing you.
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13 July 2012


to my dearest family, friends and all.

just a quick note tonight to say
all for your birthday wishes. it filled my heart with joy to read all of your kind words :')
i had a really wonderful day, all thanks to you.
love you all and again i thank you from the bottom of my heart :)
God bless you people and many many hugs and kisses!
Xx, jenyameliatah
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06 July 2012

this is me tonight
there's no more games and no more lies
and i know its right
'cause of the way you look into my eyes
and when i hold you tight
the worries disappear
i'm glad your in my life.
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26 June 2012

i was enchanted to meet you.

when we're together or
when we're apart,
you're first in my thoughts and
first in my heart:)
i was ENCHANTED to meet you.
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24 June 2012

to finally get the good

Everyone has numerous negative experiences when it comes to talking about Love. For it takes going through all of the bad to finally get to the good. I try my hardest to not let my previous relationships (or lack there of) get me down. I try my hardest to remind myself of this fact, despite having been just used and discarded by numerous guys.

It's almost as if there is a sign on my forehead, saying "Come lie to me about having a girlfriend." I almost don't know what's worse: being cheated on, or being used to cheat with. When I first hooked up with a guy in a relationship, I felt awful. Had I have known, I would have never even looked at the guy. What if the same had happen to me while I was in a relationship? Then it happened again. And again. And again. All with different guys, from different places. Granted, I never let things escalate to the level that these boys would have desired, yet still. The feeling of being used is still there.

Now there's a new guy in the picture. It has only been a couple of weeks, a couple of dates, a couple of long kisses. I'm trying my hardest to not get too excited. What if I just jinx it all, and he's like the others? Only interested in me for lustful purposes, and stops all communication once he catches on that I'm not willing to give him my all, too fast, too soon.

Is it crazy that I can only think of his eyes, his smile, the way he holds my hand and kisses it, the bizarre things he says, his head on my shoulder, his hand on my back? How soon is too soon so say that you know you've found your perfect match?

Perhaps I'm obsessive. Or maybe i'm just pathetically romantic. Either way, I just need to know that it is possible to let my guard down, and have an actual, full-fledged, hot-blooded romance with a great guy. A crush is my greatest weakness. And he's got me good.
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i wont give up - jason mraz

Hmmmm ... Hmmmm ... Hmmmm ... Hmmm ...

When I look into your eyes
It's like watching the night sky
Or a beautiful sunrise
There's so much they hold
And just like them old stars
I see that you've come so far
To be right where you are
How old is your soul?

I won't give up on us
Even if the skies get rough
I'm giving you all my love
I'm still looking up

And when you're needing your space
To do some navigating
I'll be here patiently waiting
To see what you find

'Cause even the stars they burn
Some even fall to the earth
We've got a lot to learn
God knows we're worth it
No, I won't give up

I don't wanna be someone who walks away so easily
I'm here to stay and make the difference that I can make

Our differences they do a lot to teach us how to use
The tools and gifts we got yeah, we got a lot at stake
And in the end, you're still my friend at least we did intend
For us to work we didn't break, we didn't burn

We had to learn how to bend without the world caving in
I had to learn what I've got, and what I'm not
And who I am

I won't give up on us
Even if the skies get rough
I'm giving you all my love

I'm still looking up
Still looking up.

I won't give up on us (no I'm not giving up)
God knows I'm tough enough (I am tough, I am loved)
We've got a lot to learn (we're alive, we are loved)
God knows we're worth it (and we're worth it)

I won't give up on us
Even if the skies get rough
I'm giving you all my love
I'm still looking up
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16 June 2012


a night to remember
a day that will last in our memories forever
a night that we will all share together
a night with no fights
everything is going all right
a night in which we all unite
to celebrate
a step closer to our goals and dreams
even though this night may seem
to be one of our last nights
as we remember our times together from the past
try not to be sad
because as long as the memories are alive in our hearts
our sister and brother hood can never break apart
so have a blast
live the night up
while you’re all glam’d up
step out and cause a scene (on the dance floor)
because tonight
we all are beauty queens and drop-dead gorgeous kings
forever in our hearts and mind
Bina Bangsa School students (year 10, class of 2011 - 2012)
tonight is our night
now it's our time
to shine during this year.

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