Feelings always fill me. I try my best to contain them. Filtering the good and jettisoning the bad. That’s not always the case, though. Sometimes the bad leaks out. It floods my mind and leaves pain. I try to fight it, but strength flees. Of those feelings, disappointment and doubt rule. Part and parcel of life. Inevitable.
I read my old blogs once in a while, and well I did it just now. Honestly, I don’t know what to feel after reading them, even though some entries were posted on a good and happy note, especially towards the end of last year. Man, I shouldn’t have read them, should I?
But like the saying goes, time will heal everything, and I’m pretty sure of that, no matter how difficult for me to get back on track.
So, I was doing a little bit of thinking just now. And I think currently, I’m in a much better state. I mean, looking at how some people out there are feeling so miserable over teeny-weeny stuff (which I used to consider huge), I’m glad that I don’t have to go through those things anymore. I’m grateful to have really thoughtful and nice famliy & friends around. And not forgetting, boyfriend, who have been pouring his love, attention and pampering me. Thank God.
I like how things are going now. Slowly opening up, let’s pray for the better (:
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